“The lonely ME”
The 1st person i think in the morning and the last person i think in the night is either the cause of my happiness or the cause of pain
The worst feeling isn’t being lonely but being forgotten by your love..
Whenever you leave me and go, music is the only friend and my companion…
I have been in lonely life, thinking of beautiful ghost past before you came into my life.
I was not afraid of my darkness in my path but now i am afraid of silence where, nothing can save me from my own screaming thoughts.
The time i feel absolutely alone, with a sense of being lost, even empty inside, only my screaming sound echoes into my ears, it is then i realize, i have unknowingly moved away from you.. The time i go back to remember our old good crispy memories .. then, i will just say to my heart this moment will move on soon.. Keep calm and sleep
When i am sleeping~~i am not sad~~ i am not angry~~i am not lonely~~i am nothing~~ i am not me#
Again i wake up and will try to be alone without feeling lonely…
- When i am alone – i think
- When i think. – i remember
- When i remember – i feel pain
- When i feel pain – i cry
- When i cry – i just can’t stop it
Then, i say to my heart, please my love never leave me alone#
You always say to be strong and never feel the pain….but, in reality the strongest people are the ones who feel it, understand it and accept it.. then, i just think of myself..
I am strong..
because, i know my weakness
I am beautiful..
because, i am aware of my flaws
I am fearless..
because, i learnt to recognize the illusion from real
I am wise..
because, i learnt from my mistakes
I am a lover..
because, i have felt hatred
The loneliest moment in my life is when i am watching the whole world fall apart, when you are not beside me, busy in your own world, all i do is stare blankly..then, memories strike my mind..
I am lonely in some horrible deep way and for a flash of an instant i can just see, how lonely and how deep this feeling runs.. The world i live in is empty and cold.. The loneliness cuts me and tortures my soul.
Then, i just remember the time i feel lonely, miseries running in my mind and suffering in the heart is the time i most need to be myself. I just learnt the life’s cruelest irony… !!!